RA and Depression Part 4

If its not one thing with my RA, its another. I said I would be back a week after I posted my last blog on 8/21/15 and today is 9/16/15. Almost a month later.

I have learned the thing that I can count on with RA, is that I can't count on anything! I should have known better than to promise to write another post a week later.

Rheumatoid Arthritis has been extremely challenging for me. I try not to complain, because first of all no one but my rheumy wants to hear about it and plus I know there are folks out there in worst conditions.

I hear that my RA, will be with me forever, So I guess there will always be blogs waiting for me to post, as well as days that I will refuse to get out of bed, because of the strains from RA.

What is a girl to do?

I guess I will continue to take my medicine, so when my disease begins its attack, I will hopefully be able to fend it off. When the pain from this awful disorder becomes so terribly wicked, I get so disturbingly  frustrated, overwhelmed, angry and tired. I wonder if my family comprehends the degree of suffering that is associated with RA. 

I think about my mother sometimes and what she must have gone through before she died. I know as bad as my pain can be at times, I have not suffered nearly as much as she did. Its sad that my mother was sick in a time where very little was known about auto-immune illnesses. Had my mother gotten sick today, she probably would have lived. So I am grateful for the advances that medicine has made with autoimmune diseases. I thank god everyday for my life and the lives of my children,and my grandchildren. You see, my mother never got the chance to see her beautiful grands and great grands.

I need to seriously comes to terms with my disease and acknowledged its place in my life.While living with RA is difficult and the crap that comes along with it is extremely difficult, I don't want to spend the rest of my life in bed feeling sorry for myself. I want to live! I want to live! I want to live! So those of you who know how to PRAY, please keep me in your PRAYERS.