Injecting Methotrexate Part 4

Injecting Methotrexate Part four

(OMG!, I don't believe what happened last night! I was trying to finished part 4 of injecting methotrexate, and all HELL broke lose in my body! The pain was crazy and wicked! There wasn't an area on my body that did not suffer. The pain was so bad I had to get off the computer. I am very disappointed with the methotrexate. The injections should have brought me some sort of relief, enough where I would have known the injections were working. Sorry for the rant, back to finishing this post)

I choose the left side of my abdomen to self-inject my 1st injection of methotrexate. When I returned home from the pharmacy, I sat down on my bed to examined the vials liquidly yellow substance and 1ml syringes. I really didn't want to take this medication, so I had to put myself in a safe place (mentally), where I would be able to not only self inject, but to self-inject the medication safely.

To give me the confidence I needed to self inject, I sat down to watch a few more You Tube videos on the subject. Once I felt like I could do it, I got everything that I needed together and placed them on my night stand. Then I placed the syringe, vial, alcohol, Benadryl and cotton balls on a piece of paper towel and washed my hands.

I hesitated as I sat down on my bed  and picked up the vial along with the syringe and alcohol and cotton balls. I was still alittle unsure of what I had to do. I don't know why I am always doubting myself.

Every time I lifted my pajama top up , it fell back down, so I just took the darn top off!! I cleaned a small area on the left side of my stomach with the alcohol and cotton balls. I exhaled as I picked up the small vial and popped up the blue lid. I was cautious as I peeled opened the syringe. I didn't want to stick myself. Then I stuck the needle inside a tiny opening on the top of the vial. Flipping both the vial and syringe over ,I pulled down on the handle of the syringe. I had to do this a few times, because the syringe kept bubbling and that's not good. However on the third or fourth time, the syringe filled up without a single bubble. Thank -God!

Before I gave myself the injection, I watched another YouTube video on injecting methotrexate. I was worried that I was going to screw up. When I was finished watching the video, I exhaled once more. Then I pulled my pajama top up and wiped my abdomen again with alcohol. I can do this, is what I kept telling myself. I picked up the syringe from my night stand, laid back on my bed, pinched my skin and slowly I began to inject myself with the methotrexate.

Once I pulled the syringe out of my stomach, I wiped the injected area with alcohol. Since I did not like feeling as if I needed to vomit, I took the Benadryl right after I put everything up. I have to say that I was proud of myself. I guess I need to go back to therapy to revisit my lack of confidence issues.

This past Tuesday evening, I gave myself my 4th methotrexate shot. I am getting good at it. I have to get labs soon, to see if my liver enzymes' are still elevated. Prayerfully, my liver enzymes' are fine and I can continue taking the methotrexate. I need to get off the prednisone, not just because of the potential bone damage, but the prednisone is not good for my blood sugars.

Until my next post, be blessed everyone.